This post was supposed to be posted last weekend. I had been too lazy to scribble it down and it's kinda private as well. Okay, I am posting this up because I do not want anyone to misunderstand me or whatsoever. It's so frustrating when people just would not trust me when I am saying the truth. Well perhaps , I had a poker face( in which I doubt so) that make others could not really read my facial expression. OR am I used to be the joker among my friends, and make you guys think that I wont be sad and upset at certain times?
Having lots of friends does not mean that everyone can understand me as well as Regina can. I am not bragging here, I reckon she knows more than what my parents know about me. Yea, it IS my fault that I would hardly tell anyone my problems, even my roommates. Yea, she is right, I feel insecure all the time, I do not trust anyone easily. Even after years being friends with me, you might not even know a single piece of shit of me. But I cant help it, I have been alone for so many years, I do everything almost on my own. You say I depend on my parents, true, but why not if they can afford, I mean financially. Other than that, practically, I solve everything by myself. I figured out the solutions myself( if I can), I cried to myself, I talked to myself, I scolded myself. Do you guys know about all these? NOT LIKELY. I could not stop you from thinking that single child could not be independent anyhow, then go ahead.
Thus, I do really appreciate when someone seem approachable for me. I always assume that my observations are always right. Again, I am no saint, I could be wrong, but to be frank, I won't admit it easily. For instance, I think I have made another mistake in judging people lately. I like reading people's minds, but not when I interpret wrongly. Do not think that I do not take you as my friends if I do not tell you about my private things. Sometimes, I prefer keep it to myself, and that's me, no one could change that.
My definition of good friends is not like we have to sms with each other everyday, telling each other about our daily routines, e.g, what am i doing now or what shall I do later. If so, why do not you find a girlfriend instead of a good friend. Good friend for me is that we could confide in each other whenever we need each other. We could be far apart, but with current technologies, I don't think if there is any barriers. How boring it could be if keep sms everyday and telling all those nonsense stuff. My good friend is not my intimate partner or girlfriend, why on earth should I tell them every thing about my daily life. Even I have told them, could they help me other than "oooic", "all the best", "good luck'. Heck, I do not need all these. I believe in myself. I would appreciate when these kind of messages are sent at the appropriate timing. After all, who is gonna do all the things, I am the one who controls my own life.
It would be an addition if someone could provide me constructive suggestions, you are welcomed anytime, given that they are useful. Many of my friends still do not how to differentiate when I am serious or when I am playful, apparently. Well, it's not your fault as I had given you an impression that I am that kind of person. Time will help you nevertheless.
Lastly, I truly believe myself that I am an rather introvert person, ain't I? I might be playful and annoying at times though. Duh~see... the first impression is there.
This is how I look at my friends and me. You can always disagree with me, I said ALWAYS.
Goodnight folks~
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well, juz be urself.. u dun need 2 share ur matters wit any1 if u dun feel like too.. u can keep them onli 2 urself.. but sumtimes, u will find it better 2 share wit someone.. u will find urself relieved afterall epecially d time u'r facing problems.. otherwise, u will be in bad mood the whole day due d those problems.. i used 2 be d same as u last time.. i kept a lot of stuff 2 myself.. i kept all sadness 2 myself, din share wit any1 coz i din hav any frens tat could be trusted.. tat time, i found myself always upset coz no1 shared my feelingswit me.. no1 understood how i felt.. suddenly i felt as if i was d only man in d world..
after tat, i realised the importance of frens in my life.. i would not live happily without my frens.. coz without frens, i would not hav any1 2 share my feelings wit.. i would not hav any1 2 share my opinions.. well, perhaps some ppl prefer 2 share their feelings wit their family members such as their parents or siblings.. but when they r not around, who is goin 2 giv u d support tat u need? who else? frens of course!
i dun mean tat u must share everything wit ur frens.. but sumtimes, u'd reali find it better 2 share wit ur frens.. tat's when u will get some precious opinions n comments, n most important, the concern from ur frens.. moreover, lettin ur frens 2 noe more bout ur things helps them understand u more.. if u keep everything 2 urself, no1 will noe wat u r thinkin.. n thus, they wouldnt noe how 2 console u when u r down.. tat's y they can do nth rather than juz sayin words such as "dun be sad, be happy"..
if u try 2 look around, u will find that there'r alot of frens who r reali concerned about u.. perhaps u dun realise.. but they r always there for u..
Proverb 17:17
"A friends loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity"
think bout tis proverb..
oh well, u being mysteriously secretive is not a bad thing in this society... in fact there are more ppl who do not open up to others for the fact that:
1. cannot open up (too shy)
2. dun feel like it (too ma huan for them)
3. dunno how to open up
4. just like to keep things to themselves.
but just remember one thing, if u have any problems that u can't cope, then it would be best to get external help, like frens and all that even though they dun really know the real u. they can still help in any way they possibly can. but if u dun tell, they won't know. and if they dun know, then they can't help u. see the link here? wateva u decide on doing, whether to confide or not, it is up to u. u're a young adult now and it would be wise for everyone to just let u be who u want to b. just dun bottle up everything inside until one day u can't take it anymore and thus vent everything towards everyone around u. they dun know anything if u dun tell them and they sure do not deserve to be treated in this maner shud u suddenly lose control of ur stress level. so be wise and know ur limits. and always know that if u face anything and nid help, all u gotta do is just ask, and help would be on the way within approximately 30minutes (if there's no traffic jam. jz jking)
just remember these sayings:
a friend in need is a friend indeed
AND
a good friend laughs with u, but a true friend cries with u.
U two cipots...one got geometry dun wanna study....one got dotA dun wanna play....anyway, thanks for the comment..we might drift apart after this semester, even though in a same country:P, this one year time is great...i learnt how to tolerate,( hey, I am the only child k?muahaha)HOW TO DEAL WITH FUSSY GUY AND GAME FREAK...the experience is totally awesome. I could not really describe it using pen and pencil (or keyboard?:P)....haha...hope you two take it the same way.....
cipot..now where's my pilow..??!!
?ElolZ.. kuang yau, i salute u.. i salute ur reasons y ppl who do not open up to others..
among d 4 reasons, i think d 1 which suits u d most is: u dun feel like it (too ma huan for u).. u always claim to be "lazy" to tell ur stuff 2 ppl.. but as kuang yau said, "if u dun tell, they won't know. and if they dun know, then they can't help u".
also, u just like to keep things to urself.. u always claim tat u'r d only child n duno how 2 share ur feelings wit others.. but tat's not d excuse k? u gotta learn how 2 share wit others bout ur things.. Actually, being a only child is not a bad thing tho, coz u noe how 2 be independent.. but sumtimes, being too independent is not a good thing..
well, do consider about d proverb tat i gav n the sayings tat given by kuang yau.. see wat u can get from them..
p/s: i purposely stopped doin my geometry n gav comments on tis guy's blog, but was scolded.. aikss so innocent.. 1 more thing, pls do not vent on my bed NOR my pillows.. XD
wilson...i can tell that you are wrong. I never feel ma huan telling others about my stuff. I just do not want so many people to know about my stuff. You can say I do not feel like to....i prefer keeping most of my stuff to myself. Do not ask me why. I would rather be a listener but not a good teller. Because whenever I tell, I would always keep parts of them to myself, which in other words, I wont reveal very much about my stuff.haha...of course, i would tell you about good news and somethng great that has happened to me..other than that ah...hmmmm..you dig lah if you can...muahaha
hey...
reading ur blog made me realised that i'd been thru this too..
though dunno wut's going on there..jz wanna tell u..it's ok...this is life...explore as much as u can...ultimately, u will gain sth..
perhaps, its part of growing up!!
gambatte!!take care...
gugu....thanks for the comment.for your information, there was nothing that has happened to me though..just felt like writing an article about my friends.....haha
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